@Bythebootstraps I had a childhood of physical and sexual abuse with my parents so I think the possibility of a loving relationship probably never got of the ground.
So I always think that it is a wonderful thing for people to have caring parents.
To the outside world everything to do with schizophrenia seems like a battle. It can often be more distressing to the observer/family member than it is to the effected person.
I can freak people out when I am hallucinating and they can get very distressed about it, but to me what is happening is totally normal. Under some scenarios I don't get stressed by it at all.
There are of course bad episodes which can be frightening up to the point of terror and it is that dark world which can be a facet of schizophrenia that can drive one to extreme behaviour.
Most days I have to assess what is real and what is not real from my experiences on that day. The continual hovering in the grey area between reality and unreality makes it difficult to focus on what is actual.
So irrational and aggressive behaviour may not be a feature of like or dislike but more the difficulty of gaining an equilibrium in a constantly changing state brought on by the illness.
Schizophrenia can make it difficult to appropriately express emotion,and indeed control it, but deep down I guarantee your son loves you just like you do him.
