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[Zoe7]

As you know @utopia I am very aware of how tough this is for you especially with no or very little sleep and the meds not seeming to be working. It took nearly 18 months to get the meds right and in between all that sleep was a major issue. So @utopia I am really feeling for you - it is so very hard to deal with day-to-day things with little sleep let alone having a MI - that makes it nearly impossible - so hearing you and wishing I could help you with more than just words.

Sending you love an hugs my beautiful cocky friend and as much hope as there is to find a solution for everything 

[utopia]

So 9 days ago I get pulled over by the cops. My car is unregistered they tell me. I thought I'd paid Rego.  No. It was due back in December.  

So today, first available appointment I take the car to get a RWC as I have to.  Get there to pick up my car.

FAIL.

Multiple things need fixing.  I went home ready to jump into bed and cry. Mum called.  I said I don't want to think about it today. She said give our mechanic a call.

So I ring. He's fully booked out - for the next 7 days. If I don't get the car fixed and back to the RWC man in 7 days - I have to pay another $250 for another RWC.

I tell our mechanic this. So I take the car and failed RWC list to him. He gives me a quote. Just under $700 - I have $727 in my account.  He will squeeze the work in between other jobs. Thank god. And do it in the next 2 days.

I ring and cancel my appointment with RTA tomorrow to get my car re regitered. I loose that $18.60 fee. Will have to pay it again when I next make a booking  and the fee to get a permit to drive the unregistered car to the RTA office.

My sister rings. Trying to be helpful to tell me abiut a relative of a friend who will do my mechanics work cheeper. I tell her my mechanic is doing it cheeply. Costs and 2 hrs labor.  I tell her I can't handle this. I've made my decision. 

Meanwhile I forgot my son had work tonight.  So he had to urgently ring my mum and get her to take him there. He will get a lift home with his mates dad.

I'd already rang my psychiatrist thi morning and told his secretary that my meds aren't working and I'm loosing it. I've got an appointment late Wed. Mum will lend me her car.

And you'd think that because there have been solutions to all these issues that I would be relieved. 

No. I'm crying. I've had enough.  I really feel like I'm loosing the plot. Things that other people just deal with. A bill. New tyres. Cloudy sky. Anything.  They can cope. I can't.  And I know these are all petty little shitty inconveniences - but they feel huge and overwhelming to me. 

Everything is so f***ing overwhelming. 

Everything hurts.

[Zoe7]

That is a whole lot to deal with @utopia - no wonder you have had enough - I would be in tears myself! These are all things that you didn't expect and when we are not feeling ok they can hit really hard. You are not overreacting at all - these are very real stresses that you are dealing with and ones you definitely did not need - sorry it is happening for you @utopia 

[BlueBay]

Hugs @utopia thats so stressful. You’re not over reacting. I would be crying as well. Wish there was more I can say. I’m thinking of. Praying that things pick up for you very soon. You deserve to be happy and the best. ❤️❤️

[Owlunar]

Hi @utopia

You are not over-reacting - I would be in a stew too - I get over-whelmed when too many things happen at once and there is the financial issue too - we understand - I understand

And we know why you need to be able to manage this - and just taking it in your stride is asking a lot more than with most people so vent away - I get it

You have been battling with so much - it's easy to miss a bill - and cars mean bills and expensive bills too - and you need your car for so much.

I no longer drive - I had to give it up for medical reasons - I really miss it all of these years later - I have to rely on taxis and this can be a movable feast -  so I know how difficult things can be without a car 

But hell - what a muddle - I hope you are able to get all of this sorted - quickly

btw - yes - have your own mechanic do the work - the relative of a friend can add to your problems - I have been warned against that one - you are getting the work done cheaply by a qualified mechanic - an unqualified person could make it all worse for all the best intentions - people want to help but we are better off going with what we know

Admitting you might lose the plot tells me how hard this is for you - but it seems to me things are happening - I hope they continue to happen in some kind of useful order and wait to see what goes right about all of this

Or not - bl^^dy cars - there's always something

Sending hugs

Dec

[utopia]

I've done it before - forgot to pay my rego. I shouldn't say forgot coz I thought I had paid. Other bills I've paid twice. Not remembering I'd already paid it.

My memory is in lock down. 

Am about to take a calming med. Can't sleep

[Zoe7]

Hope the calming med helps @utopia and you can sleep 

[Zoe7]

@utopia I can't get that image of the Vicar of Dibley jumping in the puddle out of my head - making me giggle as I type this lol

[utopia]

lol @Zoe7. As soon as @margot said puddles I instantly thought of that scene in the Vicar of Dibley. It's the best comedy sketch ever.

[Zoe7]

I totally agree @utopia once you have seen that episode you never forget The Vicar jumping into that puddle up to her neck lol - I instantly though of you also because of the times we talked about that show - good times hey