has anyone been on a treatment order for a while mine is about to expire and they are applying for another one and i dont know how i am supposed to feel about this part of me feels like i am just too tired to fight it and doesnt even want to go to the hearing. i just i have some fundamental disagreements with the meds i should or should not be on and everytime i dont agree to take the meds they just say well we will keep you on the order and idk like i just i am so tired and m concerns about the side effects just seem to fall on deaf ears and they just expect me to tolerate it like it is just that easy. i wish part of psychiatrist training was having to sample the medications they prescribe to people and see how it felt to take them then maybe they would understand.