~ The Toolshed ~

[Cuddlebear]

@Dreamy Sounds like it is a hard morning for you. It’s a real tough one for me. I am anxious and not looking forward to getting through today. I am going to see a new counsellor because I can’t afford my psychologist of 7 years. Counsellor is free but I don’t have much hope she will be suitable. I really don’t even want to go. 😞 

[Dreamy]

@Cuddlebear I'm sorry to hear you are feeling anxious. I really hope the counsellor you see today is helpful and that your can connect with them. I have my appointment with my counsellor today and I'm so worried because of what happened last time. 

I'm sending you lots of love, strength and hugs to get you through the day ❤️ 

[Cuddlebear]

@Dreamy   Oh lovely I can understand how you feel. I hope that when you see your counsellor today that you feel you are in a safe space and can also connect with them as you build on recovery. Thank you for the encouraging reply. My appointment is at 11 and leaving in a few minutes. I am here for you. We can chat if you feel upto it after appointments. 

[Dreamy]

@Cuddlebear my appointment is only over the phone. I can't do in person ones. I wish you all the best with your appointment. Hope to chat to you later ❤️ 

[Cuddlebear]

@Dreamy   I’m back from my appointment. The new counsellor seemed gentle and empathetic. That really helps. I have to see her face to face due to being deaf. It helps to be on the room for accessibility but the panic sets in. It’s not fun starting from the beginning with a new person but getting some tears out and someone listening was helpful. I see them in two weeks again. 

Have you had your telephone appointment yet? If you have how did it go today lovely? I’m here if you want to chat. 

[Dreamy]

@Cuddlebear I'm glad that they seem gentle and empathetic, that's a really great start. I can understand the panic setting in but you did it so well done. It's so hard having to start from the beginning, I've had to do it so many times. It sounds like all up it was helpful which is great and i hope the next appointment goes well. 

I've had my appointment and it went ok, i opened up about thoughts and urges I've been having recently and that was scary to go into. I'm feeling a bit vulnerable after it and just kind of worried about the what if's. My next appointment is a month away as she is going away, it worries me that I have to wait so long. 

[Cuddlebear]

@Dreamy  I am really proud of you for having the appointment today and opening up about how you feel and the urges you are experiencing. I know this is a really hard thing for you to do and you really did do the right thing. That was a big step to take especially with a new counsellor. It is so normal to feel vulnerable after speaking openly and to have what if’s. But know lovely you are safe, no one is going to hurt you and you have me and other wonderful souls here you can lean on. It’s a shame the counsellor is on leave for holidays. Lean on us here while they’re on break. 

Yes it’s hard to start from the beginning and I’m just glad my counsellor was empathetic and kind. I close up like a clam with the slightest sense of this won’t go well. I also had my guide dog with me and we held hands. He’s such a good boi and a very gentle and sweet soul. It did go well and I’m so thankful for it. It is small steps but considering the way I’ve been feeling it has helped me today. I had a big cry which I needed and while my guard isnt completely down I could speak a little openly with someone in the same room as me. 

[ENKELI]

@PeppyPatti my darling, I certainly love hearing updates on Peanut and even though I've only managed to look out the door to check on your plant I think of you as I do. Rain sucks, I don't get to tend my plants as much.

I too would like a friend to chill out with, it's difficult when all but one of my friends in Perth are married with grown kids now and we have little in common. My crazy cat lady friend has more friends than me so I have to fit in with her plans most times and usually it's a coffee at her place among the 8 fur babies.

I am slowly catching up on my emails, I have not felt up to checking the forums the last couple of days.

Look after yourself lovely 😍💐💖

[Sparky79]

[ENKELI]

@Cuddlebear @Dreamy, so proud of you both surviving the day. Much love and hugs xo