The Weekly Friday Feast

[Mazarita]

Hi @Appleblossom, great to see you here but sorry you are very down. Sounds like the sleep problem might be excacerbating the dark thoughts. I agree with @Jacques that you have so much to feel good about. Hope that knowledge will come back to you soon.

[CherryBomb]

Goodnight @Former-Member!

Nutella and sprinkles! Oh my, sounds like quite the party. 

@Appleblossom **hugs to you** I'm sorry to hear that you've had a rough week. 

@Former-Member your post wasn't scattered at all. It made complete sense to me. I'm so proud that despite your desire to control your diet, you're still going to your psych and yoga. It seems like you are still committed to staying well despite the struggles you are experiences. BTW, your olive, capers and tomato pasta sounds yummy.

[Appleblossom]

Even just your offer of bad jokes made me smile @Jacques

Its just one of those personality clashes were I feel pushed out of a group again and I dont know what to do about it.  I know that some people are just like that, have to take over everything and boss everyone around, and then if I say anything then I am the bad person "making comments". I should toughen up and not let it get to me. But I had hope and it gets trounced again. I had some good experiences last weekend but it looks like I will leave my new choir and go back to the church one but still do the St Matthews Passion.  I was probably stretching myself too thin, but I dont regret it in that at least it has got my son out and about.

Night @Former-Member

@Former-Member it seems as if you are hanging in there ... 3 steps forward and only 2 back ... kind of thing . thats what I keep on saying to myself.

@Drac0 I love your image too ... be kind .. its very simple .. you have been very supportive on the forums.. great to meet you.

@Mazarita love your pizza pic ... sorry about your fall .. hope all is going well on the other fronts.

[Former-Member]

Sorry to hear you are struggling immensely @Appleblossom thanks @Jacques

[Jacques]

I am so glad @Appleblossom, it is nice to think of you smiling, yes i do understand, i am still perplexed my human interaction, i struggle to speak to people in real life, so i have not been in a group situation for a long time, but i remember the stress involved with strong personalities. 

I am glad you saw you where doing too much and have gone back to your church choir, just remember you are loved and cared for on this forum, i see you like an online mum here, so it looks like you might have a virtual son 🙂

[Drac0]

Thanks @Appleblossom & @Mazarita for your comments on my avatar. We need to be kind to ourselves. Some days it will feel like no-one else is.

Yesterday I came across a blog by a young woman who has suffered through eating disorders and is now studying psychology. She has made some brilliant quotes & I thought I would share one here for everyone, especially those who have had a bad week.

"You don’t ever have to apologize for feeling sad. You aren’t being too sensitive. You aren’t imagining things or being overdramatic. You’re being true to yourself by honoring your emotions, and that is never something you have to feel ashamed of. Whether you have a need that isn’t being met, an old wound that’s been reopened, a person in your life who is making you feel small, a painful memory of something from the past, or an emptiness from the loss of someone you care about — there is always something underlying our sadness, and whatever it is, it’s important and valid. Whatever it is, it deserves to be expressed and felt."

— Daniell Koepke

Take care all.

[Appleblossom]

That is beautiful .. tearing up @Jacques

Thanks @Former-Member

I dont want to feel inadequate if I am not boasting aout endless overseas trips ... many people in the choir had no trouble accepting my lesser socioeconomic status and respected me for my music and education .. but this lady who was head of my section just had to put me down ... probably cos she felt I was competition .. but I didnt want her job .. just a little friendship and a sing. I have been struggling with it for over 12 months now and proved to myself that she was being hostile .. and playing false "love" ..

anyway .. I will miss the other people and the wonderful standard of music .. overall my 2 years in that choir taught me a lot and I had a lot of positive interaction ... I had hoped to have it as new home ... so that I wasnt in my son's choir and we could have a bit of healthy space apart .. whilst we loved doing the same thing ..

anyway to focus on the coming performance that I am still in ... which is a massive and deeply beautiful work .. but I seem to be grieving the chamber choir a bit.

[PeppiPatty]

I just copied this quote and sedniong it to my son. Thank you @DracO

[Drac0]

Glad you liked it @PeppiPatty. You will probably see a few more quotes from her around here in the future, some a very relevant to some topics being discussed.

Take care, hope your weekend is good.

[Mazarita]

@Appleblossom, it is natural that you would be grieving a project that you had been involved with for two years. Wonderful that the piece you are involved with now is so deeply rewarding. Meantime, I'm alternating computer with playing ukelele: Beethoven's Ode to Joy!