Down in the Dumps

[Shaz51]

Hello @Former-Member, @MoonGal, @darrenhayes, @BlueBay, @utopia

how is everyone tonight ?? xx

sending you all hugs

[Appleblossom]

@MoonGal Your writing is always so insightful & powerful.  When you post I feel I am in the presence of somebody I would love as a friend irl.  @Former-Member So glad things are settling. Good to read this last post as it confirms in me the need to keep on top of others' behaviours that may bring my son down.  Being mum even in letting go.

[BlueBay]

Hi @Shaz51
Going to bed soon need to be up early so my son can take me to hospital for my stay.
I may not be on here much but I'll be back soon. Take care my friend. Xxxooo

[Former-Member]

Good to hear from you again @Appleblossom - I have missed you. Even in the event of letting go that maternal instinct will still always kick in when our adult children need protection or support my friend - that bond is so strong. If they are with the wrong people they will bring them down. It took years of me persistantly pointing out the harm this man was doing to my daughter but she would always protect him and push me away.

The penny now finally dropped and for the first time in a long time she is listening to my advice. She also now talks to me more. She knows I care. I hope it lasts.

I would point out the abuse/bad behaviour once and awhile when the need arised and left it at that initially as otherwise she would get angry and defensive. And then pick up the pieces when she feel apart. But I finally got through. I hope all is going well with you and your son ❤️

[Faith-and-Hope]

Good to see you @Former-Member and hear that things are operating a bit more smoothly.

❤️💕

[Former-Member]

Thank you @Faith-and-Hope 💕 - it's good to be back 😊 It was a very rough year for myself and family and it is relieving that things have settled for us now. Hopefully daughter has grown and will make wiser choices now. Time will tell.

How are you and your family? Hope all is well with you and that life is being kind. You are such a lovely person 🌹x

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thank you for those kind words @Former-Member .... 😘

Travelling o.s. with the family at the mo .... hubby is same old, same old ... but things are doable and we have our happy times .... just have to steel myself against the e,d. behaviours and minor health dramas coming on with them .... but .... par for the course .... so I'm focussed on the trip as a Godsend distraction for the moment.

Have opened a travel thread called Far and Away if you're interested.

❤️💕

[utopia]

Hi @Shaz51. I'm just back from Meditation class and feeling very relaxed and at peace.
I just have to remind myself to let things happen naturally. Let go of trying to control or hold onto things.
I hope you are doing well. How have you been?

[MoonGal]

@Shaz51, @OverTheEdge, @MoonGal, @darrenhayes, @BlueBay, @utopia

Oh no. Here we go. Over the cliff. Huge pain-storm yesterday, scalp is tight, I wanna fight. Edging towards darkenss. I hate that the past 3 months of hypomania - I am a writer, that writer thing, feels false und untrue now - it was an enthusiasm. My manias are so sparkly and real. It feels real. I am lucky I suppose because I do not have frank psychosis, rather just inhabit a new plane. Note to self - if it says "This is IT, the best thing I have EVER done, and inhabit it so thoroughly that I am doing nothing but THAT new thing, it is probably, haha, not probably, mania. I am struggling now - last week of the fourth course in creative writing, last three weeks I have been on a downward swing. Went all hypo - on a community issue and bit off more than I could chew, over- reached, over-promised, now just want to hide-away, hideawayy. rocking in the corner. Only a few more hours to go on my course... just do it Moongal, you can do it. Get that certificate, you deserve it. Work it. Just do it.

I am narly and nasty and self-imploding.

I am in pain, and dark and hurting.

This, thing my body/brain, bi-polar, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, PTSD. all of it is a crock of sh*t!

Now that off my chest. Back to the last few hours of this course, I MUST do it. Must for my own sake. But my brain is fried and tired from three months of up.

I know everyone of us swings in some way. I am on the down. Hope you are middle to up. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️💕 .... @MoonGal