Hi @Former-Member
I dont have any contact with any family anymore. just too complicated, too much abuse from my parents and others. Contact with my grandparents was cut off when i was little, though they raised me to school age first. one sibling has gone down a bad path and been in trouble ever since teen years.. and the other is or was quite close to our father who i just cant be near.
i have a few friends, but lost most when marriage started.. and then lost the friends that 'we' had together when marriage ended.. i was the one who had to move away.. to get away, and the fact that he had a job that was a pillar in the community type of thing in a small country town, where i was just known as 'the wife' well lost those people. Then had to move again to a bigger town for support that i needed, and my son who has had some difficulties both health and otherwise. So i guess i've also not been anywhere long enough to really build up a base as well as there just being something indefinably wrong with my makeup.
i dont really have many friends, those that i do have i only have contact with sometimes and then its just text messages and phone calls are too hard (i dont know why!!). i have one friend nearby who occasionally looks after the kids if i have a psych appointment that i cant get the kids into out of school hours care for, but then i only see her to drop kids off and pick them up. not sure whats wrong with me that i find it so hard to have friends! working in some ways has been nice just to have contact with other adults (and kids) but it feels superficial...
But i hope you are peacefully sleeping now! i will go and try and sleep now too,
lj
yes wont be long re heading off
Just got into bed, sleepytime here. How are you? You're up late. Have you had a nap today? xo
