Dearest @Appleblossom There is this awesome great book by Jennifer Rutherford called "The Guache Effect," that majorly influenced me in 2004.......the author....... writes about the aggression in Australian Society......it is so so good........probably looking at some reviews will basically give you a synopsis of the book...Ille try and dig out any old notes I have on it. So relevant on what you write........ But I need to just......calm down and ask for advice. The last couple of weeks has been building up to a crescendo of high anxiety in my little life. My mum is being .......unbearable and incredibly aggressive. What can I do? I can't get away from her, she lives in my life, I have just met this amazing woman who is working on some artwork with me who she's a friend of. I've been noticing the changes in me since this started when I was first born. She has always ripped me to shreds in front of people who I am interested in becoming friends with and it's happening again. I wanted to catch up with someone who was a major person in my life and my families........and I did but she "Took over' and now, if I turn up..I am so scared of her. Usually, I just go to bed for a long time. Freaking out. Yell at my husband...can't bear hearing or seeing anything good for me. Now, I'm working on cleaning out cupboards, dialoging with my husband (hard) trying to stay with the things to do. Breathing deeply. She is going to make me out to be someone very bas in front of this person
