My special place

[Snowie]

Thanks @Bow 

🤐

[Eve7]

Sending lots of love and squishy hugs @Snowie 

🫂💜💜💜

[Snowie]

Had ECT yesterday. Was asked 'you don't have any of these do you' (referring to SH and SI) when they were doing my ob's beforehand. Just said no. The guy had started kicking the boxes before I even replied.

No reply from psych. Guess it's now 7 weeks without her.

Home alone atm. Emotions running high.

[tyme]

Hugs @Snowie ,

Please allow yourself to be helped. You have worked so hard to get to where you are already.

We are sitting with you.

Have you been able to do anything nice for yourself today?

[Snowie]

Just feels like back to where I was ages ago @tyme and I know how that ended.

My main help is going away. We were meant to work out how I was going to get through the weeks without her at our appt. on Monday. Looks like thats not happening now.

I took my mum up the street and bumped into someone I knew. Did the small talk with a smile. I hate going up there on weekends. Way too many people.

Lucky I took her to vote the other day so I could avoid it today.

At home now at least. My head is so full.

[Eve7]

I am here with you @Snowie Sitting in a lovely hotel room in Darwin and thinking of you. I should go outside but the bed is too comfortable after 2 nights in a cabin on a train.

[Snowie]

Thanks @Eve7 

Been thinking of you too, hoping your holiday has been good. Nothing like a nice bed, especially on holidays!!

I'm sure the extra room is nice.

[Snowie]

Thanks

[tyme]

Hey @Snowie , Hugs to you.

It sounds so so hard. I'm sorry it feels like you've gone back to how you were a while ago.

Has something happened for this to occur? Anything you can pinpoint? No need to share here on the forums. It just sounds so hard for you.

Please know we are sitting with you. At least you will feel less alone in the darkness.

[Snowie]

Thanks @tyme 

There are a few things that have me where I am at the moment. Unfortunately, I just can't dismiss them, I wish it was that easy.

Many things out of my control. The things I can control are not helping either.

I've been told that with time things will improve, that it will make it easier for me. However, how long this will take, no one knows.

Struggling to see this time through. Struggling to find those brief moments of peace. Very much in turmoil.