Not Good Enough

[Till23]

Hi @tyme I'm not sure who's on this afternoon/evening but I think you might be at least one of the mods today. I've been pretty busy today trying to get myself organised. I'm just writing because I feel as though I may have made a bit of a stuff up late yesterday.

It has been worrying me and I had difficulty sleeping last night.

I was sort of hoping to just quietly leave for my holiday and was letting people I felt I had connected with know. I'm fairly stressed about having all my ducks in a row for going away. The anxiety about the trip and preparation is pretty high.

I think I might have offended a newish forum member, because I didn't want to start any new conversations and spend time on them when I was going away. I feel selfish now. Turns out I spent more time worrying about it than I would have if I'd just had the conversation. Thanks for reading

[Tolly]

@Till23  the fact that you have been thinking about them shows how caring towards others you are and often we worry about these things and then it turns out that the other person was quite okay- and others on the forum responded to the new person and they would have felt welcomed- hope you have a good break and when you do come back to the forum you will have many opportunities to respond to them 💜

[Till23]

Hi @Tolly it's good to see you on the forums. Is this your first shift of "going live" or have you been doing some that I have missed? Hope you are finding it ok. Thank you for your very prompt response!

I am aware that the other person was a bit "hurt" by what I posted which wasn't actually directed at a person, just a general statement. They said so in a post. Actually I think my saying it's good to start your own thread is actually the best way to engage other people.

I have welcomed them in the thread they started, so hopefully all is ok. I am just more acutley feeling that not good enough feeling, when I am trying to lift myself out of the negative mindset.

[Shaz51]

@Till23 hugs 🫂,  

I see how upset you are my friend in what happened,  and it is all OK now 

I remember my issue on here one night that Jynx stepped in straight after I wrote a message and reply but that night I did not sleep at all , worrying so much 

Hello @Tolly , great seeing you around today 😀 you following me or me following you 😁

[Till23]

Thanks for your response @Shaz51. I hope you are going as well as can be expected with all of your own issues that you have to somehow juggle. It's feels really cold here today and there is this annoying really light sprinkling. Which is really annoying as I'd like to do a heap of washing! Especially some stuff for going away.

I just feel I could have been more inclusive but in my anxiety about trying to get everything ready and sort of having everything settled I was less than inclusive. I really want to be in a good place before I go and especially while I'm there, so I was probably too focussed on that.

[Shaz51]

All the best for the next 3 weeks @Till23 😍

For me is a waiting game , talked to the diabetes nurses today

Doctors next week and a kidney dietician 

[Till23]

Thanks @Shaz51 

Waiting is so hard

I hope everything goes well for you.

I am around until some time on monday. So I might see you at Sunday chat - or I might be running around like a headless chook 🤣

[Appleblossom]

@Till23 

Sending good wishes. I appreciate your presence but also hope you have a wonderful trip with all the sporty, social and travel experiences on offer. I have often wondered how my posts are taken. There are so many people with different views and needs and personalities. I hope that good intentions shine through. 

I will miss you while you are away, but in a good way. Nothing to worry about. Enjoy it to the max.

cheers apple 

[Till23]

Hi @Appleblossom I feel like I haven't conversed with you for quite a while.

How are you going?

Thank you for the good wishes. I'm hoping I have a good time. The experience and opportunity are pretty unique and once in a lifetime type level. I wish I could say what I was doing and we could chat about it on here. I'm going to be seeing some historic places as well as some natural things as well. I'm sure you would enjoy it.

[Appleblossom]

@Till23it will be great to hear about your trip when you return.

 I had some very bad weeks. Needed to make enquiries and tough decisions about what I can and can’t control regarding family and a group I have responsibilities for. 2 separate issues. This week has been better. Today I had my singing group. A couple years ago, I was very isolated. Despite all my challenges, this year I am more socially connected. I am making friends and learning to trust that being me, is good enough to just be real and that I am not always rejected. I can really relate to your thread title, but I am receiving more warmth and appreciation and that helps a lot.