Thank you @tyme .

I had been well. Hubby has been ok too. He needs few months to get over the feeling of 'nobody likes me'. He still say it but he's able to go outside like little shopping or put fuel in the car etc. It's small but it's a start. He's also starting his breath work and trying organising to see phone psychologist. I'm happy with it.

Also He's on fishing trip with our 14yo son at the moment. It's school holiday and apparently weather is good now so they decided to spend few days at rural area. But I have to work so I'm staying at home. The reception is sketchy so I actually don't know how they are doing. I got few messages. They've managed to catch a mud crab so they should be happy. But I got another message saying, fishing is not very good or there's not much to do etc.

If I were there, I'd gladly take 'nothing to do' as just relaxing and spend time with my son but hubby being naturally negative person he could think of himself as a failure. Well, I just have to see how they went when they come home in few days. Hope he's not too depressed. It'll be very hard for 14yo son. I can take his depression but I don't want our son to deal with dad's depression by himself.. fingers crossed!