@Mazarita it is wonderful that C and you got  through your dark times.  My ex flew the coup (after 24 years of marriage together) and wasn't there until the bitter end (when he sign me into psych ward) and even then it is only recent times that he is fully understanding. my diagnosis. Even though he knew a someone from his earlier days at uni who had schizaphrenia who thought the tv was talking to her...

When I was psychotic I would swear in public and say heaps of awful things .... it would just come out.  ODid you?