having a bad morning

[Hamburger]

Fairly boring mate..had a little dummy spit yesterday about things that are out of my control but affect me greatly..

[Shaz51]

sending you hugs @Hamburger 

Hello @BlueBay, @Faith-and-Hope, @Former-Member, @Former-Member

[BlueBay]

@NikNik @Decadian@utopia@faithandhope@teej@ @Shaz51@hamburger

Nothing will ever change the way I feel tonight. Lost abandoned and hurt. It was bad enough my parents but now my therapist after 5 yrs. we had a fantastic relationship as therapist client. But now it's all gone.
I'm feeling lost devastated and so emotional. Been crying most of afternoon.
Such a shock to hear this today. Was not expecting it. What a shit crap emotional week.

[utopia]

@BlueBay. What a hard thing to have to hear from your psychologist. And well done for going for a walk - a way to quiet yourself.
I think it's good your psychologist said this today. it shows he is out of his depth. He can't help you anymore. That doesn't have to be a reflection of you. Your needs are just beyond his abilities. Maybe you will be better with a psychologist who is experienced in BPD. Maybe this is your time to find the right therapist for you.
I understand this will be a hard day.
I like the post I think it was @Faith-and-Hope wrote.
Stay positive. Use soothing techniques. Practice breathing exercises to take your mind off it & calm yourself.
Don't go back to the self destructive self - that just wants to run away or SH. rest up tonight and tomorrow talk to the CAT group about recommending a BPD therapist.
Am thinking of you and senďing hugs.♥♥

[NikNik]

Hi @BlueBay
I just wanted to jump in and say hi. I'm about to finish up for the night - but wanted you to know I am thinking of you.

What happened with your therapist? Are they leaving?

[BlueBay]

No @NikNik
He told me today BPD is out of his depth and can't help me anymore. Had no idea what was going on. Still struggling
I'm in bed and sobbing. Over and over in my head. My eyes hurt from crying so much.
I need to sleep.
I'm so hurt. Abandonment is a horrible thing to feel.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Shaz51  We chatted on the other post, but I just wanted to acknowledge your "hi", thanks.  I hope that you have a good day tomorrow.  Sleep well.  

[utopia]

@BlueBay. Abandonment is a big fear for many - myself included.
But can you try to look at it as not abandonment, but purely as he doesn't have the skill level.
I have had 3 psychologists since my workplace injury 2 years ago.
I worked really well with my first one. But eventually he quit the organisation he worked for. He then recommended I look for a psychologist with experience treating PTSD with EMDR therapy.
She was great. I felt comfortable with her. The EMDR worked brilliantly. But I was still left with my anger and depression. She wasn't good with talking therapy or me expressing anger.
So I then found my current psychologist. He was recommended by a friend who was seeing him. He's been brilliant and has been a huge help.
But I think it has been all 3 who have helped me over this 2 years of hell. Each had their own skills in particular areas - and I needed each of them at different times.
Rest tonight. Tomorrow you may be able to get a referral to a new psychilogist who will help you along in this journey towards better health.

[TAB]

..Tomorrow is another day @BlueBay if it doesn't work it doesn't work, its a counsellor .. anyway, for what it it's worth have felt similar things with counsellors thought I had some sort of magical connection with in the past .. did they recommend anyone else to you?? ..you will be ok, may take a bit of effort to find a new counsellor or strategy about feeling better within yourself .. Life goes on ..as much as they may have seemed they care, they are just a counsellor.. its their job ..find another one if you need to. can be hard when thinking that is the only person in the world who 'gets' you ... look in inside maybe.. use it ...

[Faith-and-Hope]

Good morning @BlueBay @utopia @Former-Member @TAB @Hamburger @NikNik @Shaz51 @Former-Member

How is everybody this morning ?

🌷💜I

I have got a super busy day ahead.  Hoping my D3 is going to co-operate cos it's not gonna be a good look if she doesn't.  We have got a bachelorette dinner and Kitchen Tea all in the same weekend .... have to be super-organised here.  At least I've got a decent night's sleep behind me .... no time for a power nap today ....