Night Shift

[Shaz51]

ice cream anyone xx

[Former-Member]

Hi all...

I'm really depressed - I had this weird conversation with a friend of the guys we buy the kombocha off at the markets - he was trying to "sell" me his services as a hypnootherapist & something I've never heard of called "time line therapy" - he made me really paranoid & I was creeped out & tonight I just feel anxious about it - hard to explain... I only said I couldn't drink coffee due to anxiety (thhey had a coffee koombocha today) & he jumped on that - after that I didn't dare mention schizophrenia, depression etc. 

Also, my partner was annoyed I made a comment about being a vegan on a post he commented on on fb - it felt like he was telling me how I talk about my choices & beliefs is wrong! He thinks vegans are the most hated people on earth - I quickly said I've got a lot more hate for being mentally ill (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) 

Anyhow, those interactions are just going around in loops in my head now even though I'm trying to watch Carl Barron & relax....

Just feel terrible.... 

ALso I'm paranoid I've upset @PeppiPatty?

Sorry all

[Angels333]

Wow! @Former-Member the paranoia sound very familiar to me too. My husband is almost vegan he is lactose intolerant ovovegetarian. Which means he chooses to not eat eggs and meat and can't really eat dairy due to health reasons. He also has Crohns disease. I think maybe your husband is trying to protect you..... Because, yes there's an attitude in OZ society to make fun of vegans.

[Former-Member]

sorry youre having a bad night @Former-Member

I like the teapot @Shaz51

im so low i'm not sure ican cope with work tomorrow but not sure ican write notes either. and definitely dont want to see a dr for a sick certificate. id just like a hole to fall into and not come out i think. 

lj

[Angels333]

Hi @ lisajane when do you get the results from your appointment with the psychiatrist? Is there someway you can put it out of your mind by doing some self soothing?

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Angels333 - maybe? 

Yay - schizophrenic vegan - no wonder I have only a handful of real life friends....

Thanks @Former-Member.... I wish I had a hole too.... maybe have a day off tomorrow - get the dr's certificate - when does your holiday start?

Namaste,

A

[Appleblossom]

Hi @Shaz51 Thank you for thinking of me. 

I have calmed down from last night slept ok woke up early and went in to town on the train.  I am losing a lot of my anxiety about meeting people.  Not that I have any great friendships, but at least I have enough positive experiences.  Oh there was a footie crowd and then a couple of buskers passing a tin mug around ... going from carriage to carriage ... captive audience methinks ... so I had a really lovely day. 

One of the films was set in Wales called "Solomon and Gaenor", it was very tragic, another was lighter set in the US and called "Arranged" .  Very different styles but both worth seeing.

@Former-Member  The crow looks amazing and a great challenge. I found a lot of yoga poses stressed my wrist joints ... stuffed from too much work  ... piano, renos etc .. so I dont do much any more but today I spontaneously went into a mini tree pose under my choir gown in church ...weird

@PeppiPatty  I am just trying to bounce ideas around.  If I ever say anything inappropriate .. just ignore it ... here for you ...

Bella ... amidst the chaos of both men in your life ... keep feeding your own pool of tranquility.  You can only love them ... there is a lot that they have to do themselves.

@Jacques

I so a very similar thing .. drown out my pain with music .. and I feel greedy for the amount of music it takes to have the desired effect .. but it is probably just the old "music soothes the savage beast" effect. I am glad that you are managing a bit better. 

@eth  Toddler grandchild sounds great.  I hope you have a lovely time together ...

[Jacques]

Oh my goodness @Former-Member & @Former-Member, my thoughts and well wishes are with you both, it is so tough, just try to distract and make it through the thoughts and feelings, my heart goes out to you both, i am on tonight if either of you want to chat 🙂

Hi @Appleblossom, yes i am finding the same, i need more to have the same effect, maybe our lives are more stressful or it is like meds, the longer you are on it the less efective it is, i do like classical, but i mainly listen to enigma and soothing piano music, their is something about pianos that sooths me, the keys the melody or the sound, i am not sure, but it works. i also like the harp.

take care ladies, you are always in my thoughts even when i am not writing here i am reading every message. you are not alone.

Jacques

[PeppiPatty]

Dear @Former-Member

 I am breathless just looking at that pose.....if I wsnt so........Maybe.......If I held my breathe and shut my eyes, I can IMAGINE me doing it........ lol

I am so proud of you.......... wow. And you have Schizophrenia,........ I hope your partner knows how .....creative you are..........

Hard work.

@lisajane......honey.......can you speak to the Principal ? About this time, I crashed at working but there might not be a need to quit......you just may need a few little props ?

Maybe....a bowl of fruit next to you at work ?

Can anyone else think of anything? 

@Appleblossom Acting?? Huh? Your son? You? Looks like soemthing that would come as a takent for him.........

[Jacques]

OMG @Former-Member, that is amazing, gosh that would take enormous strength and balance, you have done so well, congradulations, Give it time, the more you do it the longer you will be able to hold it, i know from weight lifting it does get easier over time as your muscles adjust to the new positions.

you should feel proud of yourself.

i am sorry hearing about that man must have been so uncomfortable, i don't think i could handle it either, i wish people would allow others to approach them when they are comfortable.  i always feel awkward when someone offers unwanted help or advice.

I do hope maybe your emotions where high and you mis interpreted your partners comments. it must be so difficult for both of you, but please @Former-Member don't ever change a thing for someone else, if you want to be vegan, you do it, it is your right to do what you want, cherrist your way of life, to me more people should be living life like you, yoga, vegan and trying to be at peace, sounds good to me 🙂

i hope you are asleep by now, i hope tomorrow is a better day.

Take care, Namaste

Jacques