Not Good Enough

[Till23]

Hi @AuntGlow thanks for your response. Unfortunately for you though, my last night here will be Sunday night.

Although you may not be on between now and then.

If that is the case, thanks so much for the chats and your support since you started on the forums. It has been very helpful and I have learnt many things, which I have from all of the mods as well as the other forum members.

The biggest one, I think, is to try and give yourself the compassion that you would extend to others. 

This is very hard for me to do due to negative messaging from others and society initially and then I interanlised it and it's been coming from me!

But I understand that thinking negatively is not going to make things better for me.

You've slotted right in to this forums moderating and support gig magnificently

[Shaz51]

@tyme , @Till23 , @MissinTooth , @Semly 

 

[tyme]

Yep! I looked it up @Shaz51  🙂 What colours will yours be? Will it be a mystery?

[AuntGlow]

Aw @Till23, that's so nice of you!! Thank you.

Also, very lucky for me - I will be here on Sunday too hehe 💅

I shall respond properly then, I hope you have a lovely night. ✨

[Till23]

Thanks @AuntGlow. I will look forward to chatting to you on Sunday.

@tyme I guess I started this as sort of a thread I could discuss some of my own stuff not that anyone owns a thread of course.

Maybe I am wrong in my thinking.

I sort of wanted a bit of a safe place to discuss CSA and the sequelae and I have been pretty vulnerable on here. I deliberately try to mask my posts by writing benign stuff in the first two lines so it's not to be interesting to others so they scroll past. 

Anyhow, I'm probably a bit tense because I'm about to go away and I don't really want to start new conversations because I will feel some pressure to be supportive.

[Semly]

Sorry @Till23. I just saw the thread name and it really resonated. Thanks for being honest about what you need.

I might see you on some other threads. 🌿

[Till23]

No problem at all @Semly you were tagged on to it by someone else so you were probably just following the tag. I suppose I am feeling a bit stressed at the moment because I am about to go away and I'm kind of trying to ease myself off the forums.

I feel a bit sh!t that I put up that post actually, and I was actually going to edit it off the thread, but now you've responded.

I'm also very tired so probabaly not a good time to post. However, that's probably not an appropriate reason.

I don't really want to start a new conversation and leave it up in the air when I'm gone. I've been going through and letting the people I feel I have made a connection with know I am going away, so they don't feel like I'm ignoring them or something.

A good place to start though after the Welcome and Get Started space, is the Social Space to get to know people or start your own thread which you might have done already,

Sorry for seeming to not be inclusive, when I should be.

I think I might have chatted to you on the sunday night social chat though. Yes I'd love to chat an other threads I would feel more at ease there I think, but it's my own fault for posting too much stuff about myself.

[Semly]

Thanks @Till2,
Nah, I’ll haven’t been at the big social chats. I just found my own way here as I saw the thread in the recent discussion lineup.
Yeah, I might head to the ‘new here’ end of things.

[Shaz51]

Will be a mystery @tyme 

The seeds were a assortment so it will be a surprise 😊